#newyearsresolutions2018

I'm leaving behind a very depressing year.  I lost my brother at the end of 2016, I lost my grandpa in May 2017, and I lost a friend I hadn't spoken to in years.  It's been a long year.  I've learned that what were once close friends have begun moving their own way which often excludes me (except for some guilt trips).  I've even parted ways with a few friends, mostly not due to anything I had any control over.  I've also watched families fall apart.  I've finally started doing more of my actual role at work which is both more stressful and outside of my comfort zone. 

But, in that year I've made new acquaintances and even new friends.  I've taught some students that I'll communicate with for years to come.  I've watched my child learn to do some amazing and challenging new things.  I'll be teaching again this coming summer and will also be teaching a friend to sew.

There's a lot that I dwell on that was sad or hurtful within the past year.  There was also a lot to be thankful for.  There were a lot of annoyances but some fun times.  There was a lot of unresolved stuff that will continue to be a stressor but I'm managing to deal with it all.  If there's anything I've learned, that whole "one day at a time" trick works for a lot of things besides breaking out of the alcohol addiction.  Let's just roll that on out for 2018 (roll out the one-day trick, not alcoholism).

With that said, I'm coming up with a few  resolutions.  I'll throw them out and see how they stick.

1. Eat less sugar (It's my addiction).
2. Kill everyone I can with kindness...I have a whole list of people, some close, some not, on my Jerks List.  I'll just be kind to everyone and no one will really know if they made the list or not...there's a sliver of hope that a nagging voice will sit in the back of the real jerk's minds reminding them they are a-holes: a small slice of redemption pie without sacrificing my soul.
3. Reach out to my friends more often, especially those I can't bear to lose.  Those that want to be around will be, those that don't, well they inevitably end up on the Jerks List one way or another.  Hopefully I don't get myself on the Jerks List (that should be resolution 2b, don't be a jerk.)
4. Last year I added a couple of small but effective tasks to my weekly routine...in addition to keeping it up, I need to add some organization once a week to keep my clutter down.  Baby steps. (Actual baby steps are not a resolution!)

So here's to a new year, hopefully less depressing, hopefully less jerky.  I have some other things I have listed on an actual piece of paper that I haven't decided if they are realistic or not, but they're in my radar.  Maybe they'll make it into the new year.  If not, I worry not, for who among us actually succeeds with resolutions past February?!

You have any?