Snow Banks

I always begin to wonder on days like today if I can get crabbier. I know I can, it’s silly to think otherwise. I’ll rewind for you so you can see why I’m crabby.

Yesterday started out good. We had snow, I wore my cute snow boots, I started a new blog.The day was fair enough; cancelled lunch plans so no one had to walk in the snow, but I hung out at my desk and read blogs. I sent out a set of shop drawings and started the next set. My friend lost her job and got a new one all in the same day. My sister is getting back online. The day started to go downhill at about 3:30 pm. I had to leave early (I came in early to do so) to catch the bus so Chris could come pick me up before the washing machine delivery guys showed up at the house. I had somehow managed to lose my bus pass on my desk. It costs $2.00 to ride the bus home from St. Louis. I had $1.00 in my hand and told the bus driver I needed to dig the change out of my purse, so he kindly let me stay on the bus. After feverishly digging in my purse I could only find half of what I needed. With tears welling up in my eye sockets I asked the other bus passengers if they could spare me $0.50 cents to get home. Some very kind man gave me the change (probably couldn’t handle watching me cry). I paid my fare and sat at the back of the bus where no one would see me sniffling. I dug through my purse and found the rest of the change that I couldn’t find earlier and stumbled along the moving bus to pay the nice man back. Once we arrived in Collinsville, I gave Chris a call to tell him I would be arriving at the bus station only to learn he wasn’t giving me a ride home in case the delivery guys showed up. I think he could have spared the 10 minutes to get me, but instead, I walked home. Normally a brisk walk would be fine. We have 6+ inches of snow on the ground so I wasn’t so ‘fine’ with the situation. What could have been a potentially fun walk was miserable. I was stepping in unshoveled snow banks that came up to my knees or higher. In some cases I was barely straddling the snow bank to climb over. This let snow and ice into my shoes which in turn made my toes numb and wet. I slipped twice and fell once; fell really good. A car finding so much humor in this honked and waved as I was sitting on the ground. The tears that had once only welled behind my eye balls were now pouring out at an alarming rate. The tears froze on my eye lashes. The runniness of my nose also froze. I was pissed that people won’t shovel their sidewalk. I was pissed at the people that thought it was funny. I was pissed at Chris for not sparing me 10 minutes. I was pissed at the snow plows that piled snow so high I had to climb it like a mountain. I was pissed at the salt that melted the snow that turned it to ice. I was pissed at my knees for hurting so bad. I was pissed at my toes for being numb. I was pissed at my tears for freezing. I took some deep breaths before walking in the house to calm myself so I wouldn’t breathe fire at Chris. I stepped in, and slipped. I was at a delirious point in the night where instead of crying I laughed. This is a dangerous moment, when sadness and anger turn to laughter, it means I’m at my breaking point and will hit as hard as I can and not recall doing any of it. I removed all my wet and cold clothing, dunked my feet in warm water in the tub and then sat and laid by the heat register. Feeling slightly warmed I put on warm pajamas and sat at my computer, the one thing that can soothe me. Weird things happened there, but I’ll skip that part and fast forward to the delivery men finally showing up. It was about 7:30 or 8 pm. I took the dogs to the bedroom and let Chris handle everything. Fast forward to after everything is in place and installed. Chris ran a test wash, it worked. HOLY CRAP! It showed up and was working. But alas, as one might guess, still a problem. With this new fangled washer, there is a tray for detergent that is missing. Yea, missing, as in not there, just NOT THERE! I couldn’t take it anymore, I went upstairs to take warm shower so I could promptly drug myself and cry myself to sleep. Chris, not realizing he was an idiot at this point, started a load of laundry (yes, it is possible to do laundry without that tray, but that’s not the effing point here). This made my warm shower cold. I let my warm tears warm my face to finish my shower. I got out, barely dried myself, threw on pajamas, took a lot of Tylenol PM and quickly cried myself to sleep. I don’t recall anything of last night except waking a couple times glad to see a warmed half empty can of Diet Coke to drink from. So here I am today, with no major problems, a bus pass, and more Diet Coke. One might venture to guess I would be in a better mood, but, the bad one carried over, so let’s hope for less negativity, more Diet Coke and good picture for my newest blog. I’ll be nice and apologize to Chris for calling him an idiot, I do know that if he had come and picked me up, the effing delivery guys would have showed up then, and he didn’t know the washer was going to suck all my heat, it never has before! He did at least heat up some Arbogast Cheese dip for me!

And now onto the urban slang word of the day:
fake take: Pretending to enter and store someone's phone number into your moblie phone after they generously offer up their phone humber and say "Take my number and give me a call sometime."

In use:
Girl 1: Why did you take that loser's number and tell him you would call him?
Girl 2: Don't worry, it was a fake take!

Totally deflated, angry, and freezing!

Top o’ the morning with the word of the day . .
Narsty: Something nasty that’s actually kind of cool or strange. Combination of “gnarly” and “nasty”. Also spelled “gnarsty”.
In use: The gal over there with the 5 o’clock shadow sure is narsty.

So yesterday was a compelling day full of anticipation, excitement, and let downs. If you were anywhere in the United States yesterday, you were likely watching the inauguration. If you didn’t watch it, you heard all about it. I could probably write all day about that topic, but that would lead to some sort of political discussion that I just don’t want to get into, mostly because I don’t discuss politics. So after getting back to work yesterday after my hour hiatus to watch the inauguration with my coworkers; it was lunch time. The Structures group had our staff meeting; we had Vito’s pizza, so really a highlight of my day. One can never go wrong by serving Vito’s pizza. In this meeting I learned I had sort of been ‘demoted’. I’d like to emphasize that I wasn’t in any form physically demoted from what I do, rather my title. Well, I don’t know, I do care, I don’t care, I’m still deciding. I went from being an Engineer to an Engineer Technician. No change in pay, no change in tasks, just a name. I had to laugh though, because in my self evaluation that I have to perform yearly, where this title comes into play, I was a green (highest standard) in all categories. I rock! I openly told my group that I rocked it. I had marked greens everywhere; there will be no need to change me back to an engineer when I am doing this awesome. I did tell them it could have likely been my flamboyant ego flapping its brilliant wings. Well, the day goes on, even in my demoted state, and I call home to find out that the washer and dryer we recently purchased is being delivered! Yea!!!! The excitement has been flowering since we purchased it on January First! I was so eager to get home and use it that I left to catch the earliest bus that I could. Realizing it was already time to leave; I threw my stuff together, only turned off half of the gadgets at my desk and flew out the door. I ran to the bus stop! Alas, I will soon be home; but then 10 minutes go by and I realize that my bus is not coming, I had missed it! Just then my phone rings, it’s Chris, he’s going to cheer me up with great washing and drying news! No. Not it at all. The washer doesn’t work. It’s broken. And I have missed my bus. So there I stand in the cold, with all the excitement and anticipation shot out of me like air firing out of a balloon! Totally deflated, angry, and freezing, I just stood waiting for the next bus. Once home I decided my day deserved a good crying movie, so I put in P.S. I Love You and got it all out. This morning I woke up, and life is still going. I guess I’ll just have to function!